Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Surreal

I still think of the events of that night. I think about why everything happened just so. I think of what Jack yelled to me as he ran you up to me. I think of what happened after. It all seems so surreal like it is some horrible nightmare. It still is a nightmare. It sometimes seems like it just couldn't have happened and I push it out of my mind. Then I remember how I used to hold you and you would look right into my face and talk to me. I wonder if every time I fed you, you held our hands because you knew that would have to be enough to last a lifetime. I cherish those times when I held you well after you had fallen a sleep. Is it enough to last me forever? Not a chance. I feel so robbed,

4 comments:

Eileen said...

I just wanted to let you know that I read these all the time and it makes me cry to think about what you are going through. I am so sorry that she had to leave you. (((HUGS)))

wny_mommy said...

{{{{Hugs}}}} Heather. I know the affect this had on me is insignificant compared to what you are going through... but I remember that phone call from you that morning - very surreal, as was the whole week to follow. You know the story. BIG HUGS

Juli said...

I think about you all the time and pray for you.

hollyhobbie said...

Heather we are aways here for you if you need us. Your not alone. We pray for you and your family each and everyday. luv ya!