Thursday, February 25, 2010

Missing her

It's hard lately because I really miss those phone calls from her and hearing her voice. Today I went to visit my dad and he seems fine in some sense but he tells me things that I know he misses her too. Sometimes I find myself talking to her about anything I'm thinking. I just miss those talks we use to have. I wish she lived longer than she did. I just wanted her to see her grandchildren grow and meet her newest grand baby. I Love You! I know you are in a better place and I want to believe you are looking over us.

Monday, February 8, 2010

My Mom

It's been almost a month since my mothers death (Jan. 20, 2010). She is greatly missed. It is surreal when I walk into my parents house where I grew up. Everywhere I turn I expect to see my mom. When I'm sitting there I almost hear my mom say "Do you want something to eat or drink?" Even though she couldn't get out to visit family in the last 5 years she always kept contact by phone. I miss those calls to check on me and the family. It was very hard when it was 10 days later and we were celebrating my kids' birthday. I kept thinking she was going to be there at our house when we came back from Rollie Pollies. My mother-in-law was one of the last to leave the party and that was when it hit me. I broke down into tears and couldn't stop holding her and saying how much I miss my mom. Not a day goes by where she is in my thoughts. Every night before I go to sleep I tell her I miss and love her very much.